The most traumatic event in my life and the most painful, was I found my son after he took his life in 2002. It helps me to talk about it, I don’t hide from it, he was too good of a boy not to tell his story when I can and it might help someone in the process.
I figured out one thing quickly, it’s a blessing I did. A person who loses a child, has a tremendous physical pain in their chest for many days. Almost an unbearable pressure feeling pain. What is it I wondered? In short, “it’s what happens to LOVE in your soul when someone is taken from you” suddenly. It came to me setting outside looking at the beautiful stars in the night sky the day after he was gone. I asked for His understanding and instantly it came to me. “Love turns to pain”, as it should and I didn’t want it to go away knowing that. I feared he was slipping away from inside me and I was helpless to stop it. Only time healed the empty void I had. I give all the credit to God. That’s a human healing process He’s created and put inside all us. I could not have made it through that period in my life without Him.
I pray this never happens to another man, but if it does, have hope and you will heal with time and with your faith in God. Don’t give up.
Ww
